Scratched #73 off of my 101 in 1001!!!
Not too exciting to write about getting the title of the car you bought and finally paid off in your name. BUT, it's done and I feel accomplished. I also FINALLY got the address updated on my drivers license...only took me 4 years to do it, but hey it's done.
I don't even have any funny people watching stories to share because getting to the DMV at 8:30am meant I didn't have to wait. The guy who rudely greeted me at the entrance (so I could get my proper forms to fill out) did have an extremely long ring finger nail that I couldn't stop staring at. I'm assuming this long nail is to help him with his nose candy problem? Is that even the correct finger to grow your nail out for that? Is there a certain one that you should grow out OR does it not really matter? These are all questions that ran through my mind for the whole 5 minute conversation I had with Mr. Nose Candy. I don't indulge in that extra curricular activity, but I have heard how Hilton Head Island is major about their white powder. I've never come across it the entire 4 years I've lived here...THANK GOD!
Okay, sooo didn't mean for my #73 to turn into a blog about drugs. Ohhh my random mind! :)
3.30.2011
3.27.2011
Love Wounds...
LOVE~ (by definition)In English, the word love can refer to a variety of different feelings, states, and attitudes, ranging from generic pleasure ("I loved that meal") to intense interpersonal attraction ("I love my partner"). "Love" can also refer specifically to the passionate desire and intimacy of romantic love, to the sexual love of eros (cf. Greek words for love), to the emotional closeness of familial love, or to the platonic love that defines friendship,[5] to the profound oneness or devotion of religious love. [6] This diversity of uses and meanings, combined with the complexity of the feelings involved, makes love unusually difficult to consistently define, even compared to other emotional states.(wikipedia)
Love for me is both simple and difficult to define. It's a word I use often; telling my family and friends I love them every chance I get. I use it to describe how I feel about moments in time, things I truly enjoy, etc. I find that I'm a big sentimental sap and am oozing with love to give. However, I'm a raging contradiction when it comes to becoming vulnerable and opening my heart to falling in love!
I've been in love once. It seems like forever ago and I was SO young when that whirlwind all started. 16 to be exact! I remember how exciting it all was in the beginning. The teenage infatuation that grew into love. For me it was very real and it lasted for 6 years. I gave him everything...my whole heart and soul and was desperate to make it work. But, it didn't and I'm very thankful for it now. I've had many great experiences and learned so much about myself since we parted ways. I'm certain that if we would have stayed together we would have made each other miserable...we did a great job of that towards the end!
The breakup was painful....gut wrenchingly painful. Something I knew I had to do. We couldn't continue on the path we were on. We deserved better than what we were giving to each other. But, knowing that reality didn't make it easy. How can you love someone so much and not fight to make it work? How can you give so much of your time and YOURSELF to someone else and just end it? Did I love him more than he loved me? If so, how could I be so stupid for not figuring it out sooner to save myself from the heartache? Falling out of love sucks!
How do people jump in and out of love like it's NOTHING!?! This is something I often ask myself. I've only done it once and once was enough to keep my heart guarded like Fort Knox! I'm not saying that that is a good thing...like I said earlier I'm a raging contradiction when it comes to love. But, seriously how do people fall in love so easily? One minute Susie loves Bobby so much that she thinks HE is the one. A month later he is out of the picture and she's daydreaming of her wedding with Jimmy!!! That is just foreign to me!
During my single years I've dated a good handful of men. Most of the time, the guy I would date would start to really like me and I would start to freak out. I remember saying to one guy I dated, "Why do you like me? I'm a bitch to you!" TRUE STORY!! I really was awful to him, but he made me feel suffocated and it felt like too much too fast. Obviously I had to end that one. It's like when I can start to feel real emotions coming into play I want to jump ship. It's my knee jerk reaction to the vulnerability of falling in love.
I did have one relationship recently where I didn't react so violently to emotions. I actually started to chip away at my walls and let him in! This was a huge step for me, but I had a feeling it was destined for failure. Karma...for all the times I pushed people away?! That and he had just ended a relationship with the woman he thought he wanted to MARRY 2 months earlier!!! We lasted for a good 6 months (my second longest relationship...first being 6 YEARS)and I enjoyed my time with him. He was a very good man and I will always want the best for him, but I was no longer enjoying helping him mend his broken heart. Or being so understanding of his situation that I wasn't expecting more out of OUR situation! That ending was very painful for me as well! I wasn't in love with him, but I knew my feelings were growing and I could have fallen in love, IF I were to allow myself to.
It's hard for me to not build those walls back up, but I'm trying my hardest not to! I would like to experience the intoxicating emotions of love again. I'm positive that falling in love in your late twenties is a hell of a lot different than falling in love in your teens! I just need to work on letting people in and NOT doing everything possible to push them away (I even did this with Mr. Brokenhearted...I'm sure he would tell you I wasn't very emotionally open).
I will never be that girl that just falls in and out of love with ease. I will not tell someone I LOVE them unless I sincerely MEAN it! BUT, from this point forward I'm going to be more open minded to it. As terrified as I am about experiencing another broken heart....I'm even more terrified of never allowing myself the chance to fall in love again!
So here's to learning from past love wounds and keeping an open heart...
Love for me is both simple and difficult to define. It's a word I use often; telling my family and friends I love them every chance I get. I use it to describe how I feel about moments in time, things I truly enjoy, etc. I find that I'm a big sentimental sap and am oozing with love to give. However, I'm a raging contradiction when it comes to becoming vulnerable and opening my heart to falling in love!
I've been in love once. It seems like forever ago and I was SO young when that whirlwind all started. 16 to be exact! I remember how exciting it all was in the beginning. The teenage infatuation that grew into love. For me it was very real and it lasted for 6 years. I gave him everything...my whole heart and soul and was desperate to make it work. But, it didn't and I'm very thankful for it now. I've had many great experiences and learned so much about myself since we parted ways. I'm certain that if we would have stayed together we would have made each other miserable...we did a great job of that towards the end!
The breakup was painful....gut wrenchingly painful. Something I knew I had to do. We couldn't continue on the path we were on. We deserved better than what we were giving to each other. But, knowing that reality didn't make it easy. How can you love someone so much and not fight to make it work? How can you give so much of your time and YOURSELF to someone else and just end it? Did I love him more than he loved me? If so, how could I be so stupid for not figuring it out sooner to save myself from the heartache? Falling out of love sucks!
How do people jump in and out of love like it's NOTHING!?! This is something I often ask myself. I've only done it once and once was enough to keep my heart guarded like Fort Knox! I'm not saying that that is a good thing...like I said earlier I'm a raging contradiction when it comes to love. But, seriously how do people fall in love so easily? One minute Susie loves Bobby so much that she thinks HE is the one. A month later he is out of the picture and she's daydreaming of her wedding with Jimmy!!! That is just foreign to me!
During my single years I've dated a good handful of men. Most of the time, the guy I would date would start to really like me and I would start to freak out. I remember saying to one guy I dated, "Why do you like me? I'm a bitch to you!" TRUE STORY!! I really was awful to him, but he made me feel suffocated and it felt like too much too fast. Obviously I had to end that one. It's like when I can start to feel real emotions coming into play I want to jump ship. It's my knee jerk reaction to the vulnerability of falling in love.
I did have one relationship recently where I didn't react so violently to emotions. I actually started to chip away at my walls and let him in! This was a huge step for me, but I had a feeling it was destined for failure. Karma...for all the times I pushed people away?! That and he had just ended a relationship with the woman he thought he wanted to MARRY 2 months earlier!!! We lasted for a good 6 months (my second longest relationship...first being 6 YEARS)and I enjoyed my time with him. He was a very good man and I will always want the best for him, but I was no longer enjoying helping him mend his broken heart. Or being so understanding of his situation that I wasn't expecting more out of OUR situation! That ending was very painful for me as well! I wasn't in love with him, but I knew my feelings were growing and I could have fallen in love, IF I were to allow myself to.
It's hard for me to not build those walls back up, but I'm trying my hardest not to! I would like to experience the intoxicating emotions of love again. I'm positive that falling in love in your late twenties is a hell of a lot different than falling in love in your teens! I just need to work on letting people in and NOT doing everything possible to push them away (I even did this with Mr. Brokenhearted...I'm sure he would tell you I wasn't very emotionally open).
I will never be that girl that just falls in and out of love with ease. I will not tell someone I LOVE them unless I sincerely MEAN it! BUT, from this point forward I'm going to be more open minded to it. As terrified as I am about experiencing another broken heart....I'm even more terrified of never allowing myself the chance to fall in love again!
So here's to learning from past love wounds and keeping an open heart...
3.25.2011
Follow me Friday...
I'm going to attempt to keep up with a segment I like to call: Follow me Friday! Here I will tell you about someones blog that I think is worth following. I already have a few I know I want to brag on, but this is going to require me to snoop around on various blogs so that I can keep this going.
This Friday I bring you:
http://imwritingthisdown.com/#!/cover
This one belongs to my online BFF! I have to tell you that even if I didn't personally know this amazingly awesome, funny, entertaining and lovely woman; I'd still be hyping up her blog! I sometimes wish that she would quit her job and blog for a living because I know she has SO much that she can write about! Plus it is a great source of entertainment for me. I'm usually laughing out loud while reading. So PLEASE take a moment to check out her blog. You WON'T be disappointed...I promise!
p.s. I'm pretty sure y'all will find her blog in book form one day and she will become famous for it! Just wait...you'll see!
MA...I love you and I LOVE your blog. Sorry my iPad doesn't like all of the functions of blogger and I couldn't properly link people to your blog.
This Friday I bring you:
http://imwritingthisdown.com/#!/cover
This one belongs to my online BFF! I have to tell you that even if I didn't personally know this amazingly awesome, funny, entertaining and lovely woman; I'd still be hyping up her blog! I sometimes wish that she would quit her job and blog for a living because I know she has SO much that she can write about! Plus it is a great source of entertainment for me. I'm usually laughing out loud while reading. So PLEASE take a moment to check out her blog. You WON'T be disappointed...I promise!
p.s. I'm pretty sure y'all will find her blog in book form one day and she will become famous for it! Just wait...you'll see!
MA...I love you and I LOVE your blog. Sorry my iPad doesn't like all of the functions of blogger and I couldn't properly link people to your blog.
3.23.2011
Look Better Naked....
ummmm...YES please! I'm going to assume here that most women want to "look better naked". Am I right? Of course I am! As women we are experts of spotting every single "flaw" on our bodies; every dimple, jiggle, wrinkle, scar, and any other imperfection. Most of the time we are just being perfectly crazy and ridiculously harsh on ourselves. Some of you may be totally in love with your nakie self and not see any flaws. And, Well, isn't that lovely?! Y'all can just go be your blissfully happy nakie selves on some Island far, FAR away! Just teasing....
So, like most of you women out there, I too find many flaws with my reflection. I don't think I'm fat by any means, but I'm certainly NOT at my target weight or as in shape as I could be. I notice the cottage cheese that is creeping it's way on my booty and how my "love handles" seem to be growing. What I really love is how I really can't wear low rise jeans because I need the extra bit of material to cover my "baby" belly. PRECIOUS! No I'm not pregnant and no I dont have any babies....so really this "baby" belly is unnecessary! I know I'm probably being hard on myself and people would say things such as, "you look great! You don't need to lose weight", so on and so forth. But, it's about how I feel about myself.
My (cross my fingers) answer to this dilemma...the Look Better Naked health plan! Diet just sounds like a nasty word so we won't use it.
I'm on day 5 of this health plan and feeling pretty good about it! The first 2 days do require you to be on a cleanse and I have to tell you it was pretty rough.
This is what I ate both days:
Okay, in reality it was slightly more than just lettuce, but that's what it felt like.
This is what I CRAVED the entire time:
BUT, I made it thru those 2 painful days without giving into my cravings. Now I get to eat 5 small meals a day and they are deelish healthy meals! Although, this is requiring more time in the kitchen and MORE dishes!!!
Have completed 2 of the gym days and let me tell you what...they may look like no biggie in the book, but they KICK your booty! LOVING them but not loving how my legs and ass are sore in places I didn't know they could be!
SO...over the next 6 weeks I'll be updating my progress. On my way to looking better nakie!
So, like most of you women out there, I too find many flaws with my reflection. I don't think I'm fat by any means, but I'm certainly NOT at my target weight or as in shape as I could be. I notice the cottage cheese that is creeping it's way on my booty and how my "love handles" seem to be growing. What I really love is how I really can't wear low rise jeans because I need the extra bit of material to cover my "baby" belly. PRECIOUS! No I'm not pregnant and no I dont have any babies....so really this "baby" belly is unnecessary! I know I'm probably being hard on myself and people would say things such as, "you look great! You don't need to lose weight", so on and so forth. But, it's about how I feel about myself.
My (cross my fingers) answer to this dilemma...the Look Better Naked health plan! Diet just sounds like a nasty word so we won't use it.
I'm on day 5 of this health plan and feeling pretty good about it! The first 2 days do require you to be on a cleanse and I have to tell you it was pretty rough.
This is what I ate both days:
Okay, in reality it was slightly more than just lettuce, but that's what it felt like.
This is what I CRAVED the entire time:
BUT, I made it thru those 2 painful days without giving into my cravings. Now I get to eat 5 small meals a day and they are deelish healthy meals! Although, this is requiring more time in the kitchen and MORE dishes!!!
Have completed 2 of the gym days and let me tell you what...they may look like no biggie in the book, but they KICK your booty! LOVING them but not loving how my legs and ass are sore in places I didn't know they could be!
SO...over the next 6 weeks I'll be updating my progress. On my way to looking better nakie!
3.18.2011
A Gassy Situation...
no NOT the flatulent kind...
I'm sharing this recent discovery of mine just in case someone who has never used a gas oven before stumbles upon this.
About a week ago, on a Wednesday night, I'm sitting in bed (wasting time on facebook I'm sure) and enjoying the sound of the rain hitting my tin roof. I begin to notice this faint smell and not a pleasant one at that! It reminded me of a very strong earthy smell to begin with. Well, the rain IS pretty intense, so maybe it's stirring up some of the earth (right Brandy...you're smart).
The next day I get home from work and the smell has intensified and soaked into every room (okay so my house is technically one big room. It didn't have far to spread). With a look of disgust and desperately focusing on not losing my cookies, I walk around the house trying to pinpoint where this now rotting earth smell is coming from. The kitchen is where it seemed strongest. OBVIOUSLY, I assume there is a dead animal under my house because there is a hole leading to the outside in one of my kitchen cabinets (it's an old house okay)and that is where the smell could knock you out. Not even phased by the fact that the GAS OVEN is right next to said cabinet with the rotting dead animal.
The next few days I was praying the smell would just magically go away. Leaving windows open, lighting numerous candles and spraying nearly an entire can of febreeze all around the house. Sunday, I decided it was time to text (I hate actually calling people...lame I know) the landlord and let him know about the rotting animal. I also decided to try to sniff out the area again and while smelling by the cabinet heard a sort of hissing sound. Hmmmm...STRANGE! I followed the noise to my gas stove top and the smell is intensifying. YES...it's coming from the stove, why don't you breath some deeper breaths through our nose JUST TO MAKE SURE! Yep..that's it...look down...oh SHIT, this fucker has been on low for DAYS!
I'm lucky to say that I only suffered a severe headache for two days and slight humiliation at my stupidity! I now know if I start to smell rotting earth to check my stove first. Oh and NOT a good idea to light candles, spray febreeze, turn on lights, plug anything into the electrical outlets...unless you are a risk taker and want to chance your house exploding. Yeah and deciding to sleep in a house that has that awful smell could mean you WON'T be waking up!
I did all of the above. Well, besides becoming confetti or taking a permanent nap. GOD was protecting me and that I know for sure!!!
The lesson here kids: gas ovens are serious business and they produce awful smells when left on...or if you have a gas leak! And...GOD is GREAT!
P.s. I know that gas doesn't have a smell. It's just a chemical they put in it to let you know "hey I'm leaking and could kill you...DO something"!
I'm sharing this recent discovery of mine just in case someone who has never used a gas oven before stumbles upon this.
About a week ago, on a Wednesday night, I'm sitting in bed (wasting time on facebook I'm sure) and enjoying the sound of the rain hitting my tin roof. I begin to notice this faint smell and not a pleasant one at that! It reminded me of a very strong earthy smell to begin with. Well, the rain IS pretty intense, so maybe it's stirring up some of the earth (right Brandy...you're smart).
The next day I get home from work and the smell has intensified and soaked into every room (okay so my house is technically one big room. It didn't have far to spread). With a look of disgust and desperately focusing on not losing my cookies, I walk around the house trying to pinpoint where this now rotting earth smell is coming from. The kitchen is where it seemed strongest. OBVIOUSLY, I assume there is a dead animal under my house because there is a hole leading to the outside in one of my kitchen cabinets (it's an old house okay)and that is where the smell could knock you out. Not even phased by the fact that the GAS OVEN is right next to said cabinet with the rotting dead animal.
The next few days I was praying the smell would just magically go away. Leaving windows open, lighting numerous candles and spraying nearly an entire can of febreeze all around the house. Sunday, I decided it was time to text (I hate actually calling people...lame I know) the landlord and let him know about the rotting animal. I also decided to try to sniff out the area again and while smelling by the cabinet heard a sort of hissing sound. Hmmmm...STRANGE! I followed the noise to my gas stove top and the smell is intensifying. YES...it's coming from the stove, why don't you breath some deeper breaths through our nose JUST TO MAKE SURE! Yep..that's it...look down...oh SHIT, this fucker has been on low for DAYS!
I'm lucky to say that I only suffered a severe headache for two days and slight humiliation at my stupidity! I now know if I start to smell rotting earth to check my stove first. Oh and NOT a good idea to light candles, spray febreeze, turn on lights, plug anything into the electrical outlets...unless you are a risk taker and want to chance your house exploding. Yeah and deciding to sleep in a house that has that awful smell could mean you WON'T be waking up!
I did all of the above. Well, besides becoming confetti or taking a permanent nap. GOD was protecting me and that I know for sure!!!
The lesson here kids: gas ovens are serious business and they produce awful smells when left on...or if you have a gas leak! And...GOD is GREAT!
P.s. I know that gas doesn't have a smell. It's just a chemical they put in it to let you know "hey I'm leaking and could kill you...DO something"!
ABC's of me...
Saw this on another blog and thought it could be a good ice breaker into my blog.
Age~ 27 very close to 28
Bed size~ full
Chore you hate ~hmm..don't really hate cleaning, but I guess mopping the floor b/c I never feel like it's clean enough
Dogs name~ slinky...my sweet little love bug (who is really the family dog and lives w/the madre)
Essential start to your day item~ coffee
Fave color~ I dislike the favorite game because I can never pinpoint to just ONE.
Gold or silver~ silver
Height~ 5'2"
I am~ sincere, caring, giving, simple, stubborn, driven, a smart ass, strong... In my opinion of course. My friends and family would be able to give better descriptions.
Job~ the "multitasker" at a security installation company (in the office NOT on the field)
Kids~ none, but some of my friends have them and I love them to pieces!
Living arrangement~ renting a wonderful little cottage by the water...LOVE it
Madres name~ Kathy but I like to call her madre or ass (in the most loving way)
Nicknames~ the madre calls me brandylynn or brand (very original mom). Some call me b-rand and my newest jello (not sure why, but I like it)
Overnight hospital stay~ excluding birth...none
Pet peeve~ chewing with your mouth open and leaving dishes in the sink when there is an empty dishwasher inches from the sink
Quote from a movie~
Righty or lefty~ righty
Siblings~ kailey(20) and Kelsey(7)
Time you wake up~ alarm is set for 630am but I usually snooze until 7
Underwear~ LOVE them! Victorias Secret...yes please. I guess you could say how most woman love shoes...yeah that's undies for me. (strange? Maybe)
Vegies you dislike~ peas! The madre insisted I eat them and wouldn't let me leave the dinner table until they were gone. I thought I was slick by shoving them all in my mouth and when she wasn't looking spit them into the napkin. Not so much.
Way you run late~ HATE being late, but I never want to be too early either. I guess if traffic is bad I run late. OR when halfway to work I realize I've left a candle burning and HAVE to turn around because otherwise I would have been stressed about it all day.
X-ray~ once a year at the dentist and a few years ago for my shoulder
Yummy food you make~ my friends always love my eggplant Parmesan I make.
Slice up eggplant and put evoo, salt and pepper on both sides, put in frying pan for about 5min on each side, slice up equal amounts of tomato and place on top of eggplant (that is now in a baking dish), put your choice of red sauce on it and fresh mozzarella on top...then in the oven until the mozzarella is melted. GUILT free deeelish dish
Zoo animal~ elephants or the monkeys they are fun to watch!
There you have it...a little bit about ME
Age~ 27 very close to 28
Bed size~ full
Chore you hate ~hmm..don't really hate cleaning, but I guess mopping the floor b/c I never feel like it's clean enough
Dogs name~ slinky...my sweet little love bug (who is really the family dog and lives w/the madre)
Essential start to your day item~ coffee
Fave color~ I dislike the favorite game because I can never pinpoint to just ONE.
Gold or silver~ silver
Height~ 5'2"
I am~ sincere, caring, giving, simple, stubborn, driven, a smart ass, strong... In my opinion of course. My friends and family would be able to give better descriptions.
Job~ the "multitasker" at a security installation company (in the office NOT on the field)
Kids~ none, but some of my friends have them and I love them to pieces!
Living arrangement~ renting a wonderful little cottage by the water...LOVE it
Madres name~ Kathy but I like to call her madre or ass (in the most loving way)
Nicknames~ the madre calls me brandylynn or brand (very original mom). Some call me b-rand and my newest jello (not sure why, but I like it)
Overnight hospital stay~ excluding birth...none
Pet peeve~ chewing with your mouth open and leaving dishes in the sink when there is an empty dishwasher inches from the sink
Quote from a movie~
Righty or lefty~ righty
Siblings~ kailey(20) and Kelsey(7)
Time you wake up~ alarm is set for 630am but I usually snooze until 7
Underwear~ LOVE them! Victorias Secret...yes please. I guess you could say how most woman love shoes...yeah that's undies for me. (strange? Maybe)
Vegies you dislike~ peas! The madre insisted I eat them and wouldn't let me leave the dinner table until they were gone. I thought I was slick by shoving them all in my mouth and when she wasn't looking spit them into the napkin. Not so much.
Way you run late~ HATE being late, but I never want to be too early either. I guess if traffic is bad I run late. OR when halfway to work I realize I've left a candle burning and HAVE to turn around because otherwise I would have been stressed about it all day.
X-ray~ once a year at the dentist and a few years ago for my shoulder
Yummy food you make~ my friends always love my eggplant Parmesan I make.
Slice up eggplant and put evoo, salt and pepper on both sides, put in frying pan for about 5min on each side, slice up equal amounts of tomato and place on top of eggplant (that is now in a baking dish), put your choice of red sauce on it and fresh mozzarella on top...then in the oven until the mozzarella is melted. GUILT free deeelish dish
Zoo animal~ elephants or the monkeys they are fun to watch!
There you have it...a little bit about ME
3.16.2011
Bloggers Frustration...
Very recently some of my fabulous friends have decided to blog. It looked like fun and of course I didn't want to be left out! So,I decided I'd give it a go...
NOT SO MUCH
Only, for the simple fact that my iPad is not playing nice in the sandbox with blogger! This is leaving me frustrated and wanting to (a)give up my attempts to blog,or (b)buy a Mac computer so that I can blog. My impulsive side is ALL for buying the new MAC!
Until I decide, I figured that I can at least write. Sure, it won't be as fun because I can't upload any images and other such things, but at least I can express my thoughts. Whether or not anyone reads them...not my biggest concern.
NOT SO MUCH
Only, for the simple fact that my iPad is not playing nice in the sandbox with blogger! This is leaving me frustrated and wanting to (a)give up my attempts to blog,or (b)buy a Mac computer so that I can blog. My impulsive side is ALL for buying the new MAC!
Until I decide, I figured that I can at least write. Sure, it won't be as fun because I can't upload any images and other such things, but at least I can express my thoughts. Whether or not anyone reads them...not my biggest concern.
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